Mountain Pose

He stood on his porch and breathed in, long and full. Behind his ribcage, on the left, a twinge. He acknowledged the pain and bid it away with his exhalation. Sun filtered through leaves, dappling him in light and shadow. He focused on the red bird in the hedgerow. He raised his left foot into the cleft above his knee. Breathe in. I will beat this. Breathe out. Bad energy. He balanced on his right leg, a statue. A flurry of wings. He remembered the needle sticks, the crimson-filled vials, and wobbled in the small breeze.

Lying in the dewy grass in corpse pose, the stars of heaven above him, it was hard not to let worries take over his breath. He thought most of the burdens on his wife and teenage daughter. He thought of his yoga students missing class, of no longer learning at the feet of his guru. He itemized unfinished projects. The moon rose over the tree line, a huge white ghost, the air so clear he discerned craters and mountains. He focused on the largest indent and breathed but the holes in the moon reminded him not of a face but of lacunae, the holes in his body left behind by marauding white blood cells that multiplied and multiplied until they conquered the red cells and built their own fortresses: lemon-sized lumps circling his kidney. His breath leaked out and he bolted up with a choking sound.

After the surgery he slept, his body too weak for anything else. People fluttered in and out of his room, angel shadows leaving fingerprints on his forehead, his cheek, the top of his hand. He remembered what he taught his students, to breathe out bad and breathe in good, and he surrendered to his breath. On each inhale he imagined golden sunshine flooding his bloodstream, his organs, his muscle and bone, then pushing dead cells and other debris through his lungs and pores on each exhale. Days passed. He breathed gentle arpeggios and dreamt of standing in a glade of redwoods, birds circling his head, mountains towering above the treetops. Fingertips tented in prayer position, he raised his hands over his head, feet rooted to the earth, and breathed.


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Inspired by my friend Joe, a yogi who survived a 16 hour surgery this week that removed a kidney and other tissues eaten by cancer. He faces his ordeal with more courage and grace than I could ever imagine, supported and guided by his strong spiritual core. In life, there are those rare individuals who always teach, even under the most dire circumstances. Joe is such a person.

Please continue to give deeksha, to Joe, to your enemies, to any who suffer. Imbue the world with grace. Peace...

Deeksha

Deeksha is the Oneness Blessing. This gift derives out of the yogic tradition. Individuals who have reached a level of inner peace are trained to give deeksha to all who desire blessing. Givers of deeksha convey infinite love for ourselves, for others, for our world. In turn, those who receive return it to others. Deeksha is a spiritual path, but it is thought that as a yawn is contagious, so is deeksha.

This morning my friend Joe, a man of grace and dignity, a yoga instructor who gives the Oneness Blessing twice a month, will have his kidney and other tissue removed. Doctors found a 9 centimeter mass, as well as splotches in his lymph and possibly lungs. His wife is a wonderful caring wife and mother; their teennage daughter is a singer and actor bound for Broadway.

Today please set aside a minute and keep Joe and his family in your thoughts. Then perhaps another minute blessing someone else who faces fear and an uncertain future. Let's bless one another this day. Let's contaminate the world with love.

Thank you, and peace...